I start my new job on Monday. I should be over the moon. I am not. I'm part resentful, part nervous and part agitated.
A year ago this was not part of my life plan. I never intended to go back into the classroom in this capacity. Now I am and I'm worried the negative experience I had before will repeat itself. It probably won't but I'm nervous. I'm not in a good place to handle stuff like that again.
I'm also overwhelmed with my situation with my ex. I want to have an amicable, reasonable divorce where each person feels like they're being treated fairly. He's refusing to have conversations with me so of course that's not where we're at. He keeps complaining about how I'm going to screw him over and then he puts me in a position where I have to screw him over because I'm not a mind reader and I can't guess what he wants out of a situation. It's a self fulfilling prophecy of shit and I'm exhausted with it already.
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