So I listened to a podcast about Emotional Eating and the guest mentioned over and over that overeating often stems from unaddressed trauma and that's why it's more prevalent in black and brown communities.
It made me wonder. Question if you will.
Where's my trauma?
You see my parents raised me together. They're actually still married. 31 years last month. They were both in the military and then they both worked until one of them got sick. They're both college educated. I've never really wanted for anything until I got married and we were young, dumb and broke. And even then, if I swallowed my pride and called my folks? I didn't want for anything. I've never been sexually abused. Never really physically abused either. (I was spanked but that's another discussion for another time entirely.) My point is my childhood was pretty average. And yet? There's the depression. The anxiety. The emotional overeating. The rage. The fear. The inability to get out of my own way.
Why do I struggle so much? Where's the trauma that is supposed to be the reason for all of this. Am I the reason for all of this? Is it brain chemistry that causes me to crave human interaction and at the same time push it away? And if that's the case then what hope do I have? I have nothing to definitively work through. Plus every time I turn around there's hormonal fluctuations that put me back at square one.
What hope do I have?
